ALL ALONE ALL ALONE

I watched this cheesy movie last night. The plot was: a young woman's husband dies. Before he died he wrote her notes that were delivered to her after his death. The notes include tasks for her to complete, so that she could "find herself again." The mother of the woman at one point in the movie told her daughter "We are all alone in this world and at least we can find some comfort in knowing that we are all alone in it together." I have been thinking about this a lot lately, and the quote was perfect for what I had been thinking about.

I have been thinking that I shouldn't expect things from others. I don't mean that in a really pessimistic "don't trust people sort of way." I just mean we never really know what the future holds, and I am going to need to love myself first and fully before anyone else does or will. This concept is really hard for me to explain. What I think about is really hard to explain. It is not hard to explain because it is complex, but because I don't think I am quite articulate enough to explain thoughts (or maybe because thoughts are hard to explain generally.)

I have been reading Eat, Pray, Love by Elizabeth Gilbert. It is inspiring. Makes me want to travel and inspires me to seek what I truly want out of this life. I love how much she talks about food. I am a big fan of food; it is important. It is life sustaining. I can't really relate to people that don't enjoy or appreciate their food. Especially if it is for cosmetic reasons. Here is what I have to say to you: don't deny yourself girl. Woman are minimized physically by the media as an unconsious effort to minimize woman in general (their power and what they have to say.) Enjoy your food and enjoy taking up space in the world.

I have also been listening to a little bit of the Democratic National Convention on npr in the evenings. I will be so excited if this nation decides to elect the first African American president. :) :) I can't wait untill we get a woman in there as well (someday). Sometimes I feel guilt over not voting for Hillary in the primaries, but Barack is so damn charming and I love his "Change" theme. I am still a Feminist. Obviously voting one way does not mean that I have turned my back on feminism.