I am at work

I created this blog to distract myself at work. I am listening to the national on npr concerts series, it is a very enjoyable live show to listen to.

My coworker friend T-pain is walking around and comparing the # of action plans he has with mine. There is a woman in a short skirt and high heels playing ping pong in the break room. She is very adorable, but very skinny. She looks like an Urban Outfitters model. When I was a kid I imagined that I would grow up to be skinny because I was a skinny kid. Then I grew boobs and hips.

I am always amazed at how my life is different than how I imagined it would be. It is neither good nor bad. I feel passive about these things. I feel like they are out of my control. I am who I am. Sometimes my anger scares me and I don't understand where it comes from. Then I see that there are a lot of angry people around me. Sometimes my depression bogs me down. I think people express their depression differently. Mine is not extreme. I am getting older, my moods are balancing out. I am glad that I have a job that buys me healthy food and for the first time in my life I have friends that I made on my own that care a great deal about me!!

All day Allan talks about Economics. I wonder what is going to happen to the US but also the world. Crazy things I tell you. A depression seems plausible.