BRAIN PAIN

Drama.

I found out that I did not get the job that I interviewed for and had been waiting to hear back from for about a month.

Then I talked to my friend Dan and he explained that I did not get the first loss mitigation specialist position but that they want to hire 5 people total, and are waiting to get approval from the budget committee. He was confused because he said that his boss said that he really liked me and that I was a strong candidate. Who knows? - I mean what else would he say?- She was an awful interviewee...??

I have been thinking about some alternatives lately. Sitting in an office all day gets on my nerves. I think I have too much energy. I am a bundle of GHROJKLNSHO. At work sometimes O'Shaunessey, T-Pain and I dance in our cubicles.

I have been thinking about completing my Peace Corps application. I still have it half completed on Internet land from like 2 years ago. I have also been thinking about teaching English in South America. I think the Peace Corps would be more rewarding though. I think it is kind of elitist to teach the whole world English; it is totally cultural imperialism. But it would be an awesome experience. Sometimes I have issues with motivation, or distraction, or both. I dream big though. I think big dreams can take a person far. If you just think something is possible it probably is.

I also have vivid daydreams about hiking the Pacific Crest Trail. That is something I definitely want to do before I die. The trail spans from Southern California and goes up to Canada through the Cascades. It is 2,650 miles. Most hikers do it in segments. They hike from Mexico to mid-Oregon for 3 months one summer and then do the second half next year. Some hikers do the whole thing at once though. I think it takes 5-6 months total. Things that are stopping me: 1.) Money 2.) Lack of Equipment (money) 3.) Time (money) time=money 4.) Someone dedicated to go with. It probably wouldn't be the smartest thing for me to go off into the woods by myself for months.

I guess I am in the mood to do something truly life changing and eye opening.

I love people but I have always been a loner. This guy I met at the cellar last Friday told me that Aries are loners who start a lot of projects and don't finish them. That sounded like me. I had never heard the loner thing with Aries before.

Last night I went to a hookah bar with my new friend Kevin. I found it amusing because there were all these loud high school kids there. One of them was wearing these stripper heels. I remembered being in high school, wearing thrift store clothes, shaving my head, and hanging out at Denny's. I don't remember wearing 3 inch heels. It made me kind of sad. Kids these days. Sheesh. What's wrong with being a kid????